I Feel This Way
(Copyright 2002 Gary Boriero)

Angel you bring me
Everything I need
Why must this passion
Bring me to my knees
I kneel here at your feet
And I look up in your eyes
I don't understand
The reasons why

Chorus:
I Feel This Way
And it doesn't make it easier
As I walk through the shadows of my heart
You're a ray of light
And you warm me like I haven't been alive
All this time

How can it feel so right
When everything is wrong
How can you forgive me
For everything I have done

I am just a man
On a journey
That never seems to end
I tried before and failed at this
Now here I go again

Bridge:
So look in my eyes
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Promise me our love will never die

Chorus

You just got the news
And now you're off to New York
It's every wish you dreamed come true
After all these years
Of hoping this would happen
Who would have thought?
If I only knew
That now I'd have to let you go
It's the hardest thing to do

Chorus:
I hope my love finds you
There in New York
To lift you up when you're feeling sad
But don't let my love bind you
Another love find you
New York is oh so far from home

You say that you've found
A whole group of new friends
They want to show you all over town
I missed your call again
It always seems to happen that
I never seem to be around
Seems the only thing I have ever loved
Is slipping from my hands

Chorus

Bridge:
I couldn't believe it when I walked in
Through the door
And you were standing there
You said, "I missed you" and when
I looked into your eyes the tears
Began to fall

Chorus

It's been a long, long time since I was born. I've been a lot of mileage around my heart, repaving the highways, rebuilding the bridges, planting the landscape and watching it grow. Being vulnerable has never been easy for me to be.
Bridge:
I wouldn't mind
If you called me up
If only to say you were thinking of me
You don't' have to call
If you want to stop by
My doors always been open for you

You don't seem to mind the crazy things I do. You never push me away when I'm needing to feel anything. I don't want to play the game but I want to win it just the same, because it feels so good to hold you in my arms, and in between you and me the space is filled with ecstasy and the light dissolves you right before my eyes.
Bridge

Chorus:
Be careful of my heart
Be truthful with me
Don't lead me in the dark
I want to believe

You don't' seem to mind that I believe the only thing that really matters is love, everything else is just an illusion that keeps us apart so, look deep into my eyes know what I say is not a lie and let this higher love lift us above, hold on tight, don't let go it comes like this just once you know
Bridge/Chorus

I know what love is
I've seen love's face
I know what love is
I know how love tastes
I know a river where love flows along
I know the melody of love in a song

I know a sanctuary where love never dies
I know the place to look for love in your eyes
I know love's release like clouds letting rain
I know the hand of love that heals all the pain

It is love
It's everywhere
Love
It means everything
So love, love, love, love me

I don't know how to make love
I want to understand
For all I know about love
I do not know love's plans

But I know by giving love
I've got nothing to lose
I know when it comes to love
You cannot pick or chose
Who you love

Chorus

You've been catching all your tears
In a paper cup
With the walls so weak
They're about to give up
On holding in
All this pain

I can see it in your face
And the look in your eyes
And the feel of your chest
As it falls down to rise up again
Oh my love

Bridge:
Did you know that we've been blessed
And now it's time to give our hearts a rest

Chorus:
Hold on tight and don't let go
The walls are falling down
I'm moving closer into you
And I'm lost inside the sound

You can sink or swim
Rise from the ashes
Go through life with the chords
Of a passionless melody in your soul

I will be the one who loves you
I will be the one who cares
I won't be the one who leaves you
I swear

Bridge

Chorus

Was it you I saw at the top of the stairs looking out at your own savage garden?
If so, then I'll ask, "Will you make me one of you tonight, will you tonight?"

Bridge:
I don't think that I can get enough
Of Lydia's sweet passion
And Lydia's sweet rush

Chorus:
Lydia's passion sparks when the sun goes down and everything else is on fire in this town
I'd do anything just to taste her skin
I'm a needy mortal man of lust and sin
Lydia's passion burning within

I could tell by the glow of your porcelain skin preternatural from a millennium
And you shoot that ray of beauty across
Into my aching eyes so lost

Bridge

Chorus

Lydia's passion sparks when the sun goes down and everything else is on fire in this town
I'd do anything just to taste her skin
I'm a needy mortal man of lust and sin and Lydia's passion piercing my skin

Tonight
(Copyright 2002 Gary Boriero)

I'm opening my heart to you
So come on step inside
It's been so long since I've felt this way
I've got nothing to hide

In this trembling hand there is a box
And inside it there is a ring
I can't make this love legal
But I promise you one thing

I promise you till the day I die
Or till the Sun falls from the sky

All of my love everyday
And all of my kisses at night
I know it may not always stay this way
But I'm willing to put up a fight

It's four in the morning and I'm wide-awake
And you're lying here in my arms
I can't believe that you said yes
I'm the luckiest man alive

I promise you till the day I die
Or till the moon falls from the sky
There's nothing that I wouldn't do for you
But there's one thing that I ask
Will you promise me

All of your love everyday
All of your kisses at night
I know it may not always stay this way
But are you willing to put up a fight
Are you willing to lay down your love
Are you willing to promise me these things tonight

Standing up on the top of Black Rock
Maybe I was just tempting the gods
With a little break right at the tip of my heart
And I want to jump but I can't get very far

Bridge:
Opened my eyes and looked below
Spread my arms but couldn't find
The strength to go
Screaming, "I'm Orion's son" waiting for
A star to come and force me off Black Rock

In the distance I can see my soul
And it flies alone in the dark like a stone
A heavy heart that's in search of the dawn
Holding on but never quite seems to come

Bridge

Chorus:
I should let it all go because it's getting too heavy and I'm on fire
And soon as I jump and my heart hits cool water I'll come alive
And everything's fine

Was a time when I was ready for war
And I stood alone looking down at miles of shore
This was my home
And now it begins
I can feel friends gather round me in the wind

Opened my eyes and looked below
Found the strength to let it go and lifted off
Falling down into the sea and everything in front of me
Is far behind Black Rock
There's a piece of my heart
There's a chip off my soul

What would you say if I told you
That I was the only one
That ever had the chance to love her
And fly into the sun

Chorus:
And now it seems that I am losing all my dreams
I don't want to be the first one to cry to heaven
Heaven won't help me
And the angels they scorn me
As I fall down on my knees
I didn't chose this life
I didn't chose this

Now a new night is upon me
And I'm missing all my friends
Some of them that have forsaken me
Right to their bitter ends

Chorus
What would you bring if I gave you
The gift of immortality
Would you answer all the questions
That burn inside of me

Chorus

All Songs, word and music written by Gary Boriero
Copyright Gary Boriero 1995-2002 All rights reserved
Used by permission. International copyright secured.

Crystal butterflies have clear wings
well, I opened up my heart and let it sing
now I've learned to trust the only thing I know
so excuse me if I let my feelings show

Chorus:
cuz it's been a hard time
and I think I'm almost, almost over the pain
I've been a fool in love and I think
I've finally, finally found me a friend
if you'd let me go
I have feelings, too
well, I thought I meant a whole lot more to you
why don't I trust these feelings in my soul
so excuse me if I let my feelings show

Chorus

Crystal butterflies begin to scatter
cuz when the wind of love stops
their fragile wings will shatter
well, I've glued mine back together
this God knows
so excuse me if I let my feelings show

Chorus

Remember the time we took off our clothes
and walked down the road to Castaic
not a care in the world, just a boy and girl
I think it was a full moon that night
I could see the light in your eyes
it was the end of our youth
and the end of the truth for the rest of our lives
I remember the years like a flash in the pan
the memories of our childhood a couple decades
go by and we never know why
it's not the way we would have planned
but destiny takes us to foreign lands
and they're not the ones we would have chosen
but in matters of fate, will becomes frozen

Chorus:
what if things were different
would we still feel the same
or are we holding on to hope
in the middle of all this rain
remember the time in West Hollywood
the Margeuritas and pizza
we laughed til we cried while a part of us died
it's not the way we would have planned
but destiny comes in the form of a band
and it's the life that I have chosen
in matters of love, will becomes frozen

Chorus
everything I remember about you
is like a ghost in the wind
and every night you come blowing through my house
and haunt every room I am in

Chorus

Gary Boriero-Guitar, Vocals

Gary Rader-Guitar, Bass, Keyboards, Programming, Background Vocals

Myron Stam-Guitar I Feel This Way

Produced, mixed and mastered by Gary Rader with additional production by Gary Boriero

Recorded at Rader Studios, San Diego, California

Photography by Steve Azer
Cover design and art by Sarah Loffler

Steve Withers: Piano and Strings on Crystal Butterflies

I would like to thank Gary Rader for his incredible gift of production and musicianship. You my dear sir are more talented than you will ever realize. Thanks for putting up with my insatiable drive to speed the process. Thanks for the hundreds of hours you labored over these songs. A bit of your soul will now live in them forever. Thank you, Myron, for your beautiful guitar playing and for giving so freely of your time and gift. Steve, what can I say, your support is the backbone of my art. Thank you for touching this CD with the gift of your photography. As always, you are married to the light and it shines in your work. You are my best friend. Sarah, my tender and noble mate, you are the grandest German bloke a man could ever have as a friend and I love you dearly. Thank you for your art, intellect and selflessness, but mostly your presence in my life. Thank you, Steve Withers, you are an inspiration for me to play music and be successful. Your success is the inspiration for the song "There in New York". I dedicate this song to you and the love of your life. I love you all!

Gary